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With the bank of gravel that the first flood goes down enough

This day and this rain I do not go down significantly.

I do not go down this quiet room, I'm not going down that mid-afternoon and is already getting dark. Or maybe it's me, now I really do not go down.

Because I have a million things on his head, but my head feels completely empty and I can not put ideas in a row.

And I want to cry, or perhaps to sing their hearts out with all his might, to get rid of this burden.

Or just to be here to listen to the silence, hoping that at some point, everything becomes clear, despite the dark day, in and out of me.

I'm lonely, weak, instinct is to protect me even more, to close everything out and start to raise more posts possible. More gates, more guards between me and the whole world.

That just can not bring myself to get out there.

E 'which is too long to drop the slightest whiff of wind.

Unfortunately, I just can not learn how to make the barricades in defense of the continent is very important that this myself so confused.

I believed that, to save enough to be still a disappointment, because who does not make mistakes, and rather than try to avoid and more things inevitably happen to me go right to beat against.

The distance I put between me and the excitement was not enough.

few months ago, a dear friend called me laughing Miss Swarovski.

Then it made me smile that expression of affection, and I thought that was exaggerated.

But today, as I happened not long ago, today I am so new, fragile as crystal.

And I have the soul in a thousand pieces, thin and sharp enough to believe that it will no longer fix.

Because when you realize you were wrong accounts, evaluations, attitudes, when you feel so stupid, what can you do?

What we do when we can, after all, take only with ourselves, and just because we were ourselves, without filters, without shadows?

Take a deep sound and distance, it is hoped and expected to pass.

And we will soon be given another opportunity to hope to be able to get it right again.

Meanwhile, today I'm not going down.